LiseSlipping through the days, barely concious, do I care? I just can't shake the memory of joy I no longer bear, Your smile etched in my rear view, your image on my heart, I'm told to just get over you, just don't know where to start.Lise
Should I curse these memories enshrined within my mind? Maybe shatter them with anger that I just can't seem to find? Just ignore all this confusion that blazes through my soul? Merely ignore that love has found me and I can't evade her hold?
Seeing all the things I've lost, watching all that I once had, I can't help thinking, maybe oblivion wouldn
Futile PreservationCould I change it, do you think? This part of me that makes you so protective? Because you don't want to hurt me, and that hurts.Futile Preservation
Ironic? Yes, but more sense then you'd know.
Because ending this, removing yourself from me.
Its more then I can take.
So again, the question, because I don't think you understand. Could I change it, this perspective of preservation? Of somehow protecting me from pain of your imagining, by hurting me in the one way most capable.
I thought not, and here, another pain. Doubt, because lets face it, I was never good enough for you.
Spider WebsAlong came a spider to take me away, To wrap me in fibres and steal my dismay, You said I was crazy, that it was all in my head, Well the proof is here now, it happened just like I said.Spider Webs
They came in the night while I slept in my home, Broke down my door making sure I was alone, Assured me they were human, that they were trying to help, But I was fine in my warmth taking care of myself.
They filled me with drugs and told me to smile, To talk about my problems so they could put me on file, They haven't eaten me yet and I was wondering why, But then you came to see
IntertwineI'd rather our paths didn't cross, Prefer they'd intertwine, Then I could try to win your heart, The way you've stolen mine.Intertwine
I'd rather take you by the hand, Draw you close to me, To find that you do feel the same, And you are what you seem to be.
I'd rather we were meant to be, In love, come what may, That time is on my side today, And for once I'll get my way.
I'd rather this was something true, I'd rather spend my life with you, But if my fate is to watch awhile, I'll take my seat, watch, and smile.
nymph.
Swing SwingSwing, swing you legs to act carefree, But further from the truth that could not be. Her things around the house all strewn,Swing Swing
Lying that she will be home soon.
Drink, drink so you remember not, Her eyes, her hair, what got you hot. Your brain no longer wants to sleep, Slow motion clock and 10,000 sheep.
Dig, dig the skeleton from your past, A new made memory doomed to last. Her throat between your wet strong hands, The death not part of your big plans.
Now silence screams out to be heard, Your decision made without a word… Swing, swin
naked inspirationso this is it, now where to start? the end is nigh as i fall apart not even i know where i stand in this abissnaked inspiration
so how could any of you see thru this mist?
I am an enigma to myself don't offer me it cos i dont want ur help
i'm the well traveled listener not the listenee i am as lost as my mind is free
wound so tight all but hope lies within dirtied to black through all the sin drips down my throat till all can be seen is faded memories, almost forgotten, unclean
I am the enigma to you and myself all you know now is bruises and welts i'm t
| Writer (kinda) Artist (in the loosest way possible) Expressive (I'll accept that one  ) |
At least I can write again *sighs*
Shocked
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Buffy: Angel
Angel: Buffy
Xander: Xander
You are one of the reasons I write, the encouragement I recieve from you means soooo much to me
And I'm curious, what was very fun?
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So you want to hold me up and bring me down
Yes, you want to hold me up and break me down
I don't care for your sweet scent
Or the way you want me more than I want you
Sitting on David Copperfield's lap was very fun!
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